I’ve set a goal to post 3 days a week and although I scheduled Monday as one of those 3, I just didn’t have it in me. I’ll probably post today, tomorrow, and Friday. I’ve still been using the Full Focus Planner daily but I’ve been struggling to actually hit my goals every day. It hasn’t been a complete loss: I still get yoga and meditation done every morning and have kept up on my 5k training plan. Friday I’ll run my first 2 miles straight since high school. After that I will be running more than I ever have in my life which is a great feeling!
My prescription for my medication ran out over the weekend because my psychiatrist miscalculated the dose I was taking so I think a lot of the BLAH I’m feeling is just from needing to build it back up in my system (refilled it yesterday after an appointment on Monday). I also need to schedule myself a do-nothing recovery day because I am kind of burnt out with all of the mental stuff I’ve been doing.
That’s it for now, just wanted to get some writing done and to be honest there isn’t a lot else to talk about at the moment. Group therapy is tonight. I don’t really get anything out of it but I would feel bad if I told my therapist if I didn’t want to go anymore. He’s offered several times because I think he can tell that it’s not really doing anything for me. I’m in no danger of relapsing any time in the forseeable future and most of the people in group are court ordered to be there. I’m the only one who is there voluntarily (also the only one who makes it longer than 3 weeks). It’s at least entertaining most of the time if only for the dark enjoyment I get from seeing other people’s lives fall apart. More on that later, I suppose.