(featured image is another of my photographs from the cabin trip. not happy with the composition but I like the effect!)
My insomnia continues, to some degree. Falling asleep wasn’t difficult last night; actually, falling asleep isn’t ever difficult, staying asleep is my problem. I went down at 11pm after reading my allotted 25 pages of Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment, which drags on enough to get me in the mood for sleep. I’ve made it to chapter 6 where Raskolnikov is about to carry out his evil deed, so it’s starting to finally get interesting. I will say that parts of the book portray alcoholism far better than any literature or film I’ve ever encountered. If you have an interest in how the alcoholic mind works, this book would help.
Anyway, I woke up at 4:30 despite setting my alarm for 6am so that I could “sleep in”. Again, I’m not tired in the least. I wake up full of vigor which only increases when I take my medication shortly afterward. I putzed around on Pinterest; my current Pinterest passion is building a board of travel destinations in Michigan. I’m very adamant about exploring my home state so that I learn to love it. Younger goth Brian always hated Michigan, the way young goths hate any state they live in. It turns out there’s a lot to see and most of it is right up my alley. I have a goal of collecting rocks unique to different areas and building a display for them. I’ve never been into rocks. Yet another effect of Walden, possibly.
While I do have the energy this morning, I decided to not go to the gym until later in the day. For one thing, I wasted enough time on Pinterest that it’d put me somewhat behind in my work routine and for another I have a doctors appointment at 12:30 and decided to take the rest of the day off of work (I’m leaving at 11:30) so I’ll have plenty of time for the gym.
A few different blogs I’ve read this morning are all coincidentally talking about sugar and dieting. Perhaps it’s because it’s the summer and people are more conscious about their weight and how their bodies look right now? One of my passions has always been nutrition and over the last year, I’ve become more and more convinced that sugar is actually a highly addictive narcotic that society has simply been duped into believing is almost akin to a vitamin (to be sure, it was classified by some doctors as a vitamin in the 19th century). There’s nothing I advocate my friends and family do more than quit all forms of sugar. Alcohol, corn syrup, fruit (yes, fruit! the fruit we eat today has been modified over the millennia to produce far more sugar than our ancestors got from an apple), etc. I’ve already said on this blog that once I gave up sugar I dropped 20lbs like it was just air leaving my body. People struggle with running, lifting weights, and counting their calories and never lost a consistent pound. I didn’t go to the gym at all and ate as much food as I wanted and I lost all that weight just by abstaining from sugar and refined grains.
Why not make September a no-sugar month for you? It’s early August now so you have plenty of time to plan meals and prepare failsafe plans. I’m not an expert and there are plenty of other resources online for how you can do this so I’d recommend looking into those. If you’re overweight and want to lose it, this is pretty much the only way it’s going to happen. There’s no such thing as an inherently fat person. I’ve never met a fat person who simply couldn’t lose weight. They never genuinely tried.