Just a short post this morning since I posted twice yesterday. I’m having a bit of an unscheduled morning which makes me a little anxious but it’s my own doing! I forgot to pick up my prescription yesterday; now I have to go to the pharmacy at 8:00 because the one I called it in to is the only one in my area not open 24 hours. I start work at 8:00, so I’m going to be late. Normally, I’m an hour early, so nobody will mind. I just don’t like my routine being off.
Yesterday I behaved like an addict, full disclosure. Work was very slow and boring and I had an appointment with my chiropractor at 5:00 so I left early. Way early. I have the time off to do that, it just wasn’t a very responsible thing to do. Acting like an addict means that I sat in front of the computer most of the afternoon pounding Diet Coke (my new habit; I don’t even like it but I compulsively drink it).
Sooner or later, sooner probably, I’m going to have to figure out how to quit gaming and drinking soda. They’re the two last holdovers from my addiction days and are really keeping me from getting things done some days. I still do a lot more than I did when I was a full-blown alcoholic, but I waste two to three hours a night on things I don’t need to be doing. I have to remember to balance this, though. I can’t be doing productive things every minute I’m awake with no downtime or fun activities planned. The problem is that a lot of the activities people think of as fun are chores for me. Going to the beach with my family, camping, etc. Usually, I don’t want to be there.
That could have a lot to do with my addiction, though. I don’t want to be there because I’d rather be in front of the computer drinking Diet Coke.