It felt cathartic to get yesterday’s post out and I’m grateful to the people who related in the comments. I’m in much higher spirits today (maybe my new diet is kicking in?) and moving forward.
I’ve purchased the second piece to my ever in-progress analog music studio, a Korg Volca Keys loop synthesizer. I have a lot of experience with virtual synthesizers but I think that having an actual physical interface will help me greatly in relearning music production after 10 years of alcoholism. It’s not a high end piece of equipment by any means but it sounds great for the price and… at the end of the day… everything sounds good when you run it through filters anyway.