Soliloquy

Although it’s been quite some time (relatively speaking) since my last post, I have been writing. When looking over what I’ve written from an objective perspective, it’s been lacking and I’ve routinely decided to keep it in the draft bin until edits can be made. Part of the problem is that I’m expressing strong opinions in them and want to make sure I’m accurate and have done my homework. In doing so I’ve found that in some cases I didn’t really know what I was talking about. In other cases I believe that I have a strong argument but I know they’re sensitive topics and need to be broached with caution.

In an effort to “get something posted” I’m writing this aimless entry; perhaps a personal update is in order. Although I don’t believe in such a thing as “rock bottom”, I could say that I’d hit that point this week. Much of my time has been wasted on useless activities and my school work as a whole has suffered over the course of Lockdown. I’m still an “A” student because this is not a difficult college by any means, but I’m not personally proud of the work that I’ve done and I don’t feel I’ve learned anything in the past few courses.

My current course will provide an opportunity for redemption. It involves much more writing and analytical thinking than my previous three courses which were just practice labs and multiple choice quizzes with fairly obvious answers. Further, this course is the first in a while in which I genuinely am not familiar with the content so not only will I be writing but I’ll have to also research my subject while writing… a skill which is handy here as well.

I’ve decided to begin reading again and to take more notes. I’ve purchased a planner so that I can begin organizing my days and sticking to a schedule again. The timing isn’t a coincidence, work is beginning to ramp back up and for the most part my state’s shelter in place order is being lifted. It’d be unrealistic to think that life is going to return to the way it was but at least I’ll be able to get a haircut.

6 thoughts on “Soliloquy

  1. Hope things start to feel better for you! Sometimes we need to reach a rock bottom in order to get back on track ☺️
    I know what you mean about trying to convey something properly! I can often make many mistakes before I get my point over properly.

    I’m hoping I’ve fixed the problem with my comments 🤞🏼

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    1. It still won’t let me comment. 😦 It says “there was an error when trying to leave a comment” so I’ll leave it here:

      I can relate to Prue when you write about how she felt out of place in her village but had felt more comfortable in Brighton. I grew up in what most would consider a big city but compared to cities in the US, it’s small! The attitude is small-town, anyway. So it was not easy being an independent sort of person there. When I finally moved out on my own into an actual city (the first one was Savannah, GA which isn’t a BIG city but it’s the home to an art university so definitely some unique characters there) I found like I finally fit in. Now I’m back where I grew up but as an adult it’s a lot easier to handle awkward glances. Plus I’ve matured and discovered ways to bring my personality into “acceptable” clothing.

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      1. How frustrating! I’ve changed a few more things so hopefully it’s working now 🤞🏼

        Thank you! I’m glad Prue is a relatable character ☺️ It’s also great to hear that you have managed to fit back in where you grew up ☺️

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  2. Glad things are getting better and good luck with the schedule. I find that I get a lot more things done when I plan everything out and schedule things to be done at specific times.

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  3. Hang in there! Being retired now for two years, I feel thankful to be away from the workplace during these past weeks. At the same time, so much of my social routine has been interrupted. At least, I was finally able to get a haircut.

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