Between the Rested and Me

(featured image is another of my photographs from the cabin trip. not happy with the composition but I like the effect!)

My insomnia continues, to some degree. Falling asleep wasn’t difficult last night; actually, falling asleep isn’t ever difficult, staying asleep is my problem. I went down at 11pm after reading my allotted 25 pages of Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment, which drags on enough to get me in the mood for sleep. I’ve made it to chapter 6 where Raskolnikov is about to carry out his evil deed, so it’s starting to finally get interesting. I will say that parts of the book portray alcoholism far better than any literature or film I’ve ever encountered. If you have an interest in how the alcoholic mind works, this book would help.

Anyway, I woke up at 4:30 despite setting my alarm for 6am so that I could “sleep in”. Again, I’m not tired in the least. I wake up full of vigor which only increases when I take my medication shortly afterward. I putzed around on Pinterest; my current Pinterest passion is building a board of travel destinations in Michigan. I’m very adamant about exploring my home state so that I learn to love it. Younger goth Brian always hated Michigan, the way young goths hate any state they live in. It turns out there’s a lot to see and most of it is right up my alley. I have a goal of collecting rocks unique to different areas and building a display for them. I’ve never been into rocks. Yet another effect of Walden, possibly.

While I do have the energy this morning, I decided to not go to the gym until later in the day. For one thing, I wasted enough time on Pinterest that it’d put me somewhat behind in my work routine and for another I have a doctors appointment at 12:30 and decided to take the rest of the day off of work (I’m leaving at 11:30) so I’ll have plenty of time for the gym.

A few different blogs I’ve read this morning are all coincidentally talking about sugar and dieting. Perhaps it’s because it’s the summer and people are more conscious about their weight and how their bodies look right now? One of my passions has always been nutrition and over the last year, I’ve become more and more convinced that sugar is actually a highly addictive narcotic that society has simply been duped into believing is almost akin to a vitamin (to be sure, it was classified by some doctors as a vitamin in the 19th century). There’s nothing I advocate my friends and family do more than quit all forms of sugar. Alcohol, corn syrup, fruit (yes, fruit! the fruit we eat today has been modified over the millennia to produce far more sugar than our ancestors got from an apple), etc. I’ve already said on this blog that once I gave up sugar I dropped 20lbs like it was just air leaving my body. People struggle with running, lifting weights, and counting their calories and never lost a consistent pound. I didn’t go to the gym at all and ate as much food as I wanted and I lost all that weight just by abstaining from sugar and refined grains.

Why not make September a no-sugar month for you? It’s early August now so you have plenty of time to plan meals and prepare failsafe plans. I’m not an expert and there are plenty of other resources online for how you can do this so I’d recommend looking into those. If you’re overweight and want to lose it, this is pretty much the only way it’s going to happen. There’s no such thing as an inherently fat person. I’ve never met a fat person who simply couldn’t lose weight. They never genuinely tried.


Okay so overall, yesterday was a bad day! Those of you who have read my blog for some time know that I don’t particularly enjoy spending time with my niece and nephew. They’re spoiled crybabies who turn every family gathering into a coddling ritual. I’m over that today, though. Onward and upward. I’m in a beautiful log cabin in the woods on a private pond. And I have my own car with me which is different from every other family holiday I’ve ever been on. I can escape.

I’ve been thinking about going to either Sault Ste Marie or Mackinac Island this weekend, both are within an hour of the cabin and I haven’t been to either since I was a child. Theoretically I could go to both.

One thing is for sure, I’m not sitting around here until Tuesday when there’s so much to see. I’ve always been poor at traveling and one of my “sobriety goals” was to change that. While I don’t have the financial stability to tour the globe right now, there is plenty to see in my home state. The drive up here yesterday was a good reminder of how easy it is to just get in my car and GO. It was only a 3 hour drive to a completely different environment.

In the off hours I’ve been reading Machiavelli’s”The Prince” which is another kind of tourism: exploring the minds and places of the past. The more you read books that were written hundreds or even thousands of years ago, the more you realize that we’re all the same and very little ever changes. I also realize more and more that human beings are basically flawed and wicked and will never learn from their mistakes, but that’s for another story-time!

Arrived at the Cabin

After a harrowing trip down a few mountain passes at 70mph, I made it. Early. Way early. I’ve been sitting in my car for an hour as I don’t have keys to the cabin. I walked around the property a bit and took some photos and tested out my tripod but there isn’t much else to do.

I saw a family of turkeys on my way in and there are rumors to be a lot of bears around here. Should be interesting. There’s a pond behind the cabin which will provide ample drawing opportunities, not to mention fishing.

Fortunately my car has a WiFi hotspot so I’m not totally bored sitting here waiting. I would walk around and explore more but… They did say bears.

On the Road

I’ve never written a post from the mobile app before so we’ll see how this goes! I’m on my way “up north” which is Michigan lingo for anything north of Flint. That’s a pretty huge area so it’s mostly a meaningless term. My family and I are going to be staying in Elmira, me until Tuesday and them the whole week. I can’t handle my niece and nephew for 7 days.

We were supposed to all leave around the same time but I’m 2 hours ahead of everyone, sitting at a rest stop and stretching my legs. I’m thinking of getting my camera out of my car and taking some nature shots; it looks like there’s a trail behind me.

I stopped at a Target in Flint and picked up a bigger SD card for my camera as well as a tripod and some shorts (since I forgot to pack mine). It’s been a pretty leisurely trip so far which is the way I like it. If you don’t like stopping every hour or so to explore, you’d hate traveling with me. It’s about the trip and not the destination in my philosophy.

I’ll probably keep a running log of my vacation from time to time. See you soon!