Void

Sound doesn’t travel in a vacuum. The roar of the atomic fires below wouldn’t reach Kaylon’s ears, much less pierce the thick hull of the ship. The hull was comprised of meters-thick alloy designed to shrug off interstellar dust and debris during near-light travel. The dark observation room in which Kaylon surveyed the bombardment from was illuminated only by the red, yellow, and blue flashing lights from various consoles… coded reports from the ships A.I. on everything from life support to the operation of the bomb manufactorium in the ships aft. Kaylon ignored the lights; only engineers of the technomancer’s guild were equipped and trained to understand them. Kaylon was merely a grunt, waiting for the last signs of resistance on the planet below to die out before he and his brothers would descend like vultures upon carrion to purify the world of its past civilization to give birth to a new. Order from chaos.

The Imperium swept across the stars like a cleansing light, subjugating the weak and annihilating the strong. They had no directive other than to expand. Worldships such as Kaylon’s traversed the void nigh-aimlessly until a habitable world was discovered. If uninhabited, a garrison would be left behind to establish a foothold and communications with the home systems. If inhabited, it wouldn’t be for long.

Further From the Brink

I feel even better today; I didn’t eat as well as I planned yesterday (just didn’t have the energy) but I did cook a healthier meal than I have been eating. Chicken burrito bowl over rice. Rice is terrible for you but it’s a comfort food for me and I wanted it, darn it! All of the comments and well wishes I’ve received over the past week are much appreciated and I’ve tried to respond to all of them but if I’ve missed you, it’s just because I haven’t had the energy to write. Normally I’m excited to get WordPress notifications but in the past week it’s just been a tap-and-dismiss habit.

Documenting my feelings, though sparsely, has helped as well to get me to reflect on why I feel like this and in a way how silly it is. I’ve beaten myself up for having one, maybe two, weeks of lethargy when I’ve been absolutely killing it for 2 months prior. In the grand scheme of things this is nothing but it’s difficult to see that when you’re in the middle of it. Hopefully down the line, if and when this happens again, I’ll be able to re-read these posts and remind myself that it will end… especially if I don’t let myself binge on McDonalds and candy for a week.

Yesterday I had my chiropractic appointment (I go twice a week) and during my back adjustment apparently he got me to squirt some blood out of my nose. Not fresh, healthy blood but brown, sick, old blood. This is the second time this week I’ve had that nasty stuff come out of my nose and I’m not sure what’s up. You may remember that I had my nose cauterized about 4 weeks ago but this is coming out of the opposite nostril. I called the physician-on-call last night because the ENT was closed and he thought that what probably happened is my nose bled so badly before it was cauterized that it filled my sinuses and now they’re finally draining. My worry, though, is that I’ve been getting massive headaches every time this blood comes out which doesn’t seem like sinus drainage to me. I’m going to call the actual ENT in a few hours when they open. I just hope my brain isn’t bleeding (the dramatic hypochondriac in me).

Reading has been really lacking through this ordeal and I think that’s part of the reason I get so depressed: I set these goals for myself like finishing a book every two weeks so whenever I fall off of that habit, I fail that goal. I have an over-arching goal of finishing all of my currently owned books by the end of the year and now I’m way behind because of this episode and a few others in the past 6 months. It’s just time, though. Years are a human construct so does it really matter if I finish all of my books in February instead of January by 1st? Probably not. My brain just likes neat and tidy structure.

Just realized I forgot to take my medication this morning, too. That’s becoming a more and more frequent occurrence since my morning routine has been totally shattered. I can just take it after work so it’s not the end of the world, just makes me feel like a jack-ass.

Still in the Doldrums

I haven’t been writing as much lately because I feel that nobody needs an endless torrent of misery levied at them, but I have some free time today and nothing else to do! I’m not quite as miserable as I was over the weekend… weekdays are always better just because I have something to focus on and am also around other human beings.

Yesterday was my birthday and I was actually blown away by how many people at work visited this year. A lot of the referees (mini-judges) stopped by my floor and they don’t do that often. I’d like to think it’s because people notice when you work hard but in all likelihood it’s because they were hungry, haha.

My therapy appointment went well and did manage to cheer me up a bit. Just talking about life with somebody who is a professional at it helps a great deal, I really think everyone should do it. I always thought that therapy was useless because it doesn’t really “fix” anyone. These days I understand that, while progress is extremely slow in the personal development department, therapy does play a huge part in it.

Blunt Japanese Woman has an interesting theory about introverts, that too much alone time can burn out your energy stores and lead to a depressive episode. I think I’ve found this to be true. I’ve been very isolated these past couple of years even despite not wanting to be. However, when an opportunity to meet with people does arise, something always gets in the way be it my own social anxiety or a massive depressive episode like this last time.

Sal, my therapist, helped to put things into perspective though. Yes, I may be burnt out on the gym, photography, music, etc. but I am still sober and I still do more with my day than the majority of people do. I’m in college with a 4.0 GPA, I read every day, I try to write SOMETHING every day, and I practice at least one thing even if my mood will only allow for a few minutes. Many people just go home from work and watch TV and nap. I’m at least doing better than that.

Not attaching images or any formatting to these recent posts I feel conveys how pointless and droll I find life to be right now. It’s also because I don’t have the energy or motivation to edit anything I’m writing or format it. Pictures just seem superfluous at the moment. It kind of makes me feel like my blog is disorganized and spiraling down the drain but I know that some day I’ll recover from this and be back to writing on a better level.

Diet is super important, I know, and I’ve been eating like a postmodern savage lately. My friend Moriah sent me this article last night and it has motivated me a bit. I had breakfast today and I’m going to make sure to eat some fatty fish like salmon with some veggies tonight to hopefully increase my energy tomorrow. I don’t have lunch though, so I don’t know what that’s going to do to me.

Up and Down

I feel great today! Lately it’s been a roller coaster, though: happy one day, depressed the next. Usually it’s some trigger that sets me off like bad experiences in the dating apps or my alcoholic brother renting movies on my Amazon Prime account (and thus my credit card… don’t worry I changed my password). Today I didn’t let any of those triggers in. The minute I woke up I jumped out of bed, threw on shorts and a t-shirt, and went to the gym. Part of a happy life is not looking inward too much. That’s why people commonly say that those who struggle with depression are also very intelligent. We think too much, and when we think too much some of us tend to think about things that aren’t great. This is where mindfulness comes in! If I can focus on what I’m doing in the moment for even thirty minutes a day, that’s thirty minutes I’m not thinking about the awful things that could happen in my day.

Today’s workout was a bit rough! It’s arm and chest day and I’m not fully recovered from last time because I stopped working out during the bloody nose fiasco so my body isn’t used to it anymore. But, a short workout is still a workout and I get to mark it down in my planner as a streak! I need to start doing yoga at night again but I just really do not like yoga. Haha! I don’t know why, I just dread the thought of doing it.

I’ve put together a rough outline of the book I hope to write and I’m just writing on the topics in free-form mode. For me, it’s better to spill my guts onto a page and then edit it later rather than trying to moderate myself in the moment, even with blog posts. I almost always write my post around 6 AM but sometimes I’ll let it sit until 5 PM so that I can periodically look at it and edit it. I feel my best work comes out of that process, and the numbers appear to agree. There’s certainly value to my raw, personal posts in that it is very helpful to get advice from my friends here.

Some of you who have read much of my story here know me better than my local friends do because I don’t let them read my blog and I don’t talk to them about most of this stuff. I don’t know why. Perhaps it’s fear that they wouldn’t like me anymore, which is ridiculous because that’s been proven wrong to me so many times. It’s a habit, though.

I’ve been pretty lazy after work which I hate because it basically means I’m back to where I was before I started taking my medication. The reason I started taking all of these pills is because I was sick of being super active and positive for two weeks and then suddenly quitting everything and sitting in front of my computer for two months. I’m not as bad as I was so the medication is doing something but a piece of the puzzle is missing.

I know I need to work on my diet again, it’s really slipped lately. That might help but I take a lot of vitamins with my medication so I feel like I’m okay there. It’s probably just depression and anxiety. Even though I feel good today there is still that underlying feeling of fear and dread that’s always there. Like something horrible is about to happen but I don’t know what.

I finished the first chapter of 12 Rules for Life yesterday and so far the book is amazing. Probably the best psychology-slash-philosophy book I’ve ever read. Regardless of what you think of Peterson’s political views, he’s obviously extremely brilliant when it comes to psychoanalysis and biology. I plan on writing a post for every chapter not only so that you all get some benefit out of it but so that I cement it in my head as well. The best way to remember something is to re-write it in your own words, I think. Also using it in conversation… that’s how I remember new words. For example I learned that the word for my personality when I was a drunk is “sardonic”.

Cynical and mocking. Very accurate.

Liebster Award

I was nominated for this award a WHILE ago but kept forgetting to answer the questions and pass it along! I’m always thrilled when people think of me for things like this and I have to send a heartfelt thank you to Just Tips & Stuff for tagging me and giving me this award! It also gets me out of having to think of something to write today on my own and I can’t be mad about that!

  1. What is your favorite food? Ever since I was a child I’ve loved my mother’s city chicken (it’s actually pork)! Every year for my birthday she makes it for me; one of these days I’ll try to learn her recipe.
  2. What is your favorite color? It might come as no surprise to people who have seen my ongoing bedroom project, but it’s green! I generally like all Earth tones.
  3. What powers would you have if you were a superhero? Superpower? Heck I’d settle for being able to talk to people! I suppose I’d go with mind reading then so that I could tell what people are thinking during a conversation.
  4. Where would you like to travel to? Oh gosh, everywhere! Rome is first on my list because I love the history. My family is from Ireland so that’s up there too.
  5. Do you think money should exist? Yes. There will always be something people use to represent their labor.
  6. What are your hobbies? Photography, drawing, graphic design, writing (of course), and music. The trouble with those hobbies is that I’m not actually that creative!
  7. Would you want to be president? Not even remotely!
  8. What’s the first thing you would do if you won the lottery? Invest most of it.
  9. What is your dream job? Working for myself as a writer or artist. My more realistic goal is running my own cyber security firm.
  10. Do you like city or rural living better? Hard to say as they both have their advantages but I’ve learned from the times that I’ve been “away from it all” that I really need to be connected to other people. City it is.
  11. What animal are you terrified of? Anything that I can’t see the face of. Spiders, all insects, worms, etc. It’s not a gripping terror I just prefer them to not be on my person.
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Now I’m supposed to come up with 11 questions! This is the hard part. Let’s see…

  1. Why did you decide to start writing on WordPress?
  2. Where are you from?
  3. Who is your biggest role model?
  4. What’s something you could never get tired of?
  5. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
  6. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
  7. What advice do you have for someone getting started with blogging?
  8. Where is your favorite place to be?
  9. What’s the best book you’ve ever read?
  10. Do you have a favorite band/artist?
  11. Do you play an instrument?

Now for my nominations, if you’ve already done this I apologize. I know I’ve been seeing it around quite a bit lately but I haven’t a clue who has already done it! If you have, just disregard or feel free to do it again!

Monica
Nelson
Living With Kristy Lynn
One Regular Dad
Functioningguzzler
The Black Haired Guy
Chocoviv
SobrietyTree

Some of you I’ve been following since the very beginning and some of you I don’t know very well at all but love your writing. Have fun!

My Lack of Conversational Style

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Yesterday was my bi-weekly meeting with Sal, my therapist, and I had somewhat of a major breakthrough. It was more because of something he said rather than one of those “aha!” moments but it’s still one of the most important realizations I’ve had this year. He read several entries of my blog over the past couple of weeks and asked me why I don’t talk the way that I write. In my writing I’m very opinionated and confident whereas in my speech, it might sound strange to those of you who have never met me, I never state an opinion and remain ambiguous on everything because I’m that afraid of confrontation.

My lack of conversational skill is something that I’ve been aware of my whole life but I was never able to put my thumb on what exactly was wrong with me! I watched other people have intense, even positively intense, discussions with one another and I’ve never had that for myself. Conversations with people whom I’ve known even for years usually amount to “how was your day”, “good”, “okay talk to you soon”. Deeper conversations with good friends are really just them talking about themselves and me listening while occasionally saying “yup”.

I’m still not sure exactly what it is. It isn’t fear that causes my silence; I genuinely have no thoughts while I’m listening to other people. It’s like I’m so focused on what they’re saying and trying to understand where they’re coming from that my brain has no input on the matter at all. I suppose that this is what people mean when they say I’m a “good listener”. In the instances where I am thinking while someone is talking, it’s always because I’ve tuned them out accidentally. Once their line of thought has ended, I’m able to collect my thoughts and give a brief reflection on what they’ve said but it’s nothing like what I write here. I think that’s why I attract so many selfish, borderline narcissistic people. Our relationships are always one-hundred-percent about them.

So that’s going to be my focus moving forward. I have no idea how I’m going to become more opinionated or “speak as I write” as my therapist put it, but I’m going to have to figure it out if I want to grow. It’s not that I don’t have ideas; if you’ve been reading this blog for any amount of time you know that I have no shortage of ideas and opinions, I just don’t think about them when other people are around. I’m sure it’s a learned behavior from always being shut down by people in my youth. I was always told I was stupid, gay, a loser, etc. when I raised my own opinions. I have a lot more confidence than I used to, though. I know that I am smarter than a lot of people, my life has been full of proof of that recently: straight A’s in college, endless promotions at every job I’ve had, the ability to pick up new hobbies and become relatively masterful in a matter of weeks… I’m not an idiot.

Now to help everyone else see that.

I’m Writing a Recovery Book

When I was new to recovery, I joked with my therapist that everybody who achieves long-term sobriety ends up writing a book. Perhaps this was cleverly masking my actual desire to do the same. I’ve always wanted to write lengthy projects like books or even eBooks, not on sobriety of course. Looking back on the last month and a half, I’ve written about two pages a day for 40 days… a little over 80 pages, probably. Considering most “light reads” are between 200 and 250 pages, I’d be almost half way there if I was writing consistently about the same subject.

My desire to write a book on recovery isn’t to capitalize on alcoholic’s misery, which is what I told my therapist I saw most of these authors doing. I want to write one because when I was trying to sober up and I was reading a half-dozen books on the subject, they were all completely full of crap. I read a thousand pages of wishful thinking and rose-colored obliviousness that did absolutely nothing to help me. The worst of the worst was “The 30 Day Sobriety Solution” by that hack who writes the “Chicken Soup…” books. It basically amounted to “if you wish hard enough, you’ll get sober”. If that has worked for any of you, please let me know in the comments. I’ll hold my breath.

I’m excited to start. I know it will be a lengthy process and most of what I write probably won’t even make it into a first draft. I’ll probably get as much out of it as a hypothetical reader would because it will teach me so much about the writing process. Nelson has recommended a few books on writing that I intend to check out once I’m paid again (so much for not buying more books until I finish my current hoard!)

Lastly I wanted to thank everyone who wrote positive comments yesterday, it really cheered me up and I finished the day strong! The general consensus is that I need to stop beating myself up for not being busy 24/7 and just take some time to relax. I’m taking that advice this week. There are still a few things I want to do just to keep a streak going (reading and of course my classes) but my workload will be considerably lighter. I feel much better today, more confident and optimistic. I also have my therapy appointment after work which I always look forward to. Now that I’m well into my recovery, our sessions are mainly just musing about life which I don’t really have anybody to do that with.

Hope everyone has an awesome day!

How I Got Better at Writing

How do I get better at writing?” is a question asked often in the comment sections of those blogs about promoting your page. This isn’t one of those blogs of course, but the subject of website growth interests me and so I occasionally write about it. As with anything, becoming a better writer takes practice and dedication (duh, tell us something we don’t know, Brian). Writing isn’t enough in itself, though. I’m no professional author, but I’ve been told over the years that I have some innate talent for it so I thought I’d share a simple list of the things I have done throughout my life that I think make me a decent writer. We all love lists, right?

Read

Reading is at least of equal importance to writing! The simple act of reading someone else’s words will give you ideas for formatting and structure, and will also improve your vocabulary. You don’t need to sit down with a notebook and pen and analyze every book you own, just read.

Sit with your finished writing

Something I struggle with as much as anyone is publishing my posts immediately upon finishing them. My better posts and essays are the ones I let sit for several days, editing them a couple of times before considering them “done”. You may not think of the best way to say something the first or second time you read through it. Sometimes you need to let your brain rest for a day and look at it with fresh eyes. I was skeptical of this until I started writing in college. You really do find dozens of things to edit 24 hours later.

Write every day

I don’t believe in writer’s block! Maybe on a particular day, working on your latest project sounds like less fun than jabbing butter knives under your fingernails. You should still write something. If your book or blog posts aren’t inspiring you that day, write about something new. Write a simple letter to yourself, write a journal entry about your day. It doesn’t really matter what you write as long as you sit down and do it. I believe that motivation comes from doing work, not the other way around.

Stay true to your style

When you read the really popular blogs out there, you may be tempted to emulate the way those authors write. This always comes across as fake. I don’t know how people can tell, but they can. Your writing should be like a conversation between you and your reader in a sense. Don’t reach for the thesaurus in order to wow people with an 8-syllable word for pizza, just write the way you speak. I sometimes come across like a pompous dick in my writing. That’s because when I talk to people, I sound like a pompous dick!

Optimize your work space

A cluttered desk creates a cluttered mind. I’ve spent a lot of time making my office an inspiring place that I want to be in. It’s filled with plants, natural light, and photographs that inspire me (none of those corny motivational posters, please). I make sure to clean up after every session so that the next time I sit down it’s tidy and ready for work. There are virtually no distractions which actually makes writing a relaxing experience for me.

Stay healthy

As with all things, a healthy body equals a healthy mind! If you neglect your well-being, your creative pursuits will suffer. We all have the image of the tortured artist secluded in a dark studio cranking out masterpiece after masterpiece, but this was rarely a reality. Artists mingle with other people, eat plenty of healthy fats and protein, and get out in the sunlight for a little while every day. I challenge you to find one successful artist who sits in a dark bedroom and eats potato chips all day! I used to think that I was unique in that I split my time between intellectual activities and physical activities like exercising and running. It turns out that’s what all successful people do.

Writing shouldn’t be a chore, it should bring you joy, but it does take some discipline to flourish. It’s a skill just like anything else so the more you do it, the more quickly you will improve!

Day 30

Featured image is of my mother. First portrait I’ve taken of another person.

This is day 30 of my 30-day blogging schedule! I consistently posted at least once a day and it wasn’t even that difficult once I stuck to a schedule. My schedule has been off this week, not just for blogging but for everything, because of my injury. I’m mostly recovered, though. Just taking it easy so I don’t damage it yet again and have to start all over.

I’m probably going to slow down on the posting so that I can work on more elaborate posts instead of these daily updates. They’ll be the same, content wise, but I just would feel more proud of my writing if I put more thought and work into the editing and construction. I’m thinking two to three posts a week would be perfect. I may do more if the mood strikes me but that’s what I’m aiming for.

Thank you to everyone who started following and commenting on my posts this last month. I went from 3 followers to almost 150! Granted, a lot of them aren’t genuine, but it’s still cool to see. I’d like to try to get to 500 by the end of the year which is totally doable if I work at it.

Prime Recovery has gone from an alcoholism-centered space to pretty much my own personal diary. I like it more this way but the name doesn’t really fit anymore. Even though I talk about my recovery from time to time, alcoholism and addiction aren’t subjects I’m terribly interested in anymore. I’ll always continue to give support to those who are looking for it, but that chapter of my life is closed. Drinking alcohol doesn’t even register on my scale of “things I might do in the near to distant future” so I just don’t think about it. That said, my addiction has definitely shaped who I am today. I think I’m a stronger person having gone through the things that I did. I also have more appreciation for other people, knowing how much they helped me.

I’m sure I’ll post tomorrow because I’m still not well enough to go to the gym which is what will be taking up my normal writing time slot eventually. Until then, see you in the comments!

Films That Shaped My Youth

Bonus post day: I wrote a guest post that is now available over at Rinse Before Use on dating in sobriety. If you have a moment, have a look! It’s a subject dear to me as it’s something I’m dealing with quite a lot at the present season of my life.

I’m no film expert, but I’ve seen a lot of movies in my life. While I do enjoy every genre, cerebral stories and visually-stunning cinematography have always drawn me in far more easily than explosive action and romantic comedy. As with the books I read, I prefer films that make you think. There’s no one genre or region that does this better, each having their own stars. To kick off a new, presumptuously sporadic, series on film, here is a list of my favorite films from my youth which developed my film tastes. Note: there are spoilers in this list so if you haven’t seen one of the movies below, and intend to, skip it!

run lola run

Run Lola Run, or Lola Rennt, was not only the first self-chosen foreign-language film I was exposed to, it was also the first movie I’ve ever purchased. It’s perfect for someone like me, an obsessive music snob with extreme ADHD. The soundtrack and pacing of the movie are both blistering and accompany one another perfectly. The plot, at least back then, was unique to me. Run Lola Run was the first film I’d watched that was split into corresponding parts… Without giving too much away, Lola is a German girl whose boyfriend, Manny, loses a bag of money belonging to his drug dealer boss. Both Lola and Manny need to find $100,000 (well, marks not dollars) before the end of the day. That story is not unique, of course, where the film shines is in how the story is told. Lola dies several times throughout the movie, each death starting her at the beginning of the day in a Groundhogs Day situation, only she doesn’t recall her previous lives the way Bill Murray does in that film. It’s been a long time since I’ve last watched it and I think a viewing this weekend is in order.

requiem for a dream

Requiem for a Dream punctuates a theme throughout my film world in which great soundtracks really draw me in. The Kronos Quartet absolutely kill it on this soundtrack and it is to this day one of the only film scores that I own. Requiem follows three friends and their acquaintances through the ups and (mostly) downs of heroin addiction. It’s not a nice movie and will probably leave you feeling slightly depressed upon its conclusion, but the thing about great art is that it isn’t all supposed to make you giddy. Requiem starts on a high note and gets more and more melancholy until the conclusion in which everyone’s lives have been shattered by drug addiction.

memento

Memento blew my mind the first time I saw it as a youth. The story is told backwards through the point of view of a man who has sustained a brain injury which makes him incapable of making new memories. His body is covered in tattoos meant to remind him of things that happened recently and he can never be sure who he’s met before or how he knows them. At the center of this story is a criminal plot to manipulate his condition that is slowly revealed as he backtracks through recent history. You never know who to trust and, rare in film, the main character is a very unreliable narrator as he himself has no clue what is going on.

pi

I won’t lie to you, but Pi gave me a headache the first time I watched it. The movie tells the tale of a conspiracy centered around a semi-insane mathematician who may or may not have developed an algorithm based on the Qabalah that can predict world events. He’s attacked by several factions who all desire control of his technology and are willing to kill to get it. It’s dry. All of Darren Arenofsky’s films are. Even so, it was the first “art” film I’d ever seen and holds a special place in my heart. The special effects, what little there are, are extremely dated and the dialogue is delivered like a high school calculus lecture, but it’s worth a watch.

alien

Alien might stand out on this list as it’s more mainstream than the others, perhaps slightly less so in 2019. The first two films of the franchise were two of my favorite sci-fi films for a good portion of my life. Unfortunately, the sequel Aliens doesn’t stand the test of time the way the original does. While the sequel is a cheesy (at some points embarrassing) action movie, the original is the epitome of 80s sci-fi horror which countless movies have tried to emulate. I’d be hard to convince that all of you don’t know the plot to Alien already but just in case, it’s a movie about an alien organism that infests an interstellar star ship and slowly massacres the crew. Like Run Lola Run, the story isn’t what makes the film unique; the cinematography, sound design, and overall atmosphere evoke dread and terror better than many horror films, although many have tried to replicate the formula.

kikujiro

Kikujiro is only one of the Beat Takeshi films I’ve seen but it’s the one that stands out in my mind the most. Kikujiro is an older man who lives with his wife next door to a young boy and the boy’s grandmother. Upon finding a photo and address of his mother, the boy decides to search for her and Kikujiro reluctantly accompanies him on the long trip across the country. At its core it’s a road-trip comedy, but it’s unlike any other I’ve seen. The main character is entirely unlikable from the outset and slowly grows on you as he grows closer to the boy. Along their path they meet several interesting characters who add some flavor and comedic relief to the sometimes tragic and sad film.

road warrior

I’ve probably seen The Road Warrior over fifty times. In middle school, I used to come home and watch parts of it every day. Obsession is, after all, a character trait of addicts! Friends would come over, see me watching the movie, sigh and turn right back around! The Road Warrior is peak post-apocalyptic action. If it seems tired, that’s only because every post-apocalyptic movie since has stolen some part of its design or lore from this story. Loosely a sequel to Mad Max (all the films in this universe are only very loosely related, in fact) it is an improvement in every way upon the original. It’s the story of a world ravaged by resource wars, where survivors scavenge for food and gasoline to keep on moving for one more day. The terrain is plagued by raiders and cannibals, with the “good guys” being a tiny minority. Max returns as the anti-hero and reluctantly agrees to lead a group of said good guys across the desert to a legendary paradise which may or may not actually exist. The film culminates in an automotive battle scene that is legendary and rarely topped.

I’ve seen hundreds of movies in my life, as I’m sure many of us have! This is just a short introduction for my readers to some of the films which have defined my youth. By no means is the list exhaustive, and I could easily add another hundred to this list if you or I had the time for such a compendium (The Wong Kar-Wai films for example are easily some of my favorite films of all time)! In the future, I’ll delve deeper into these films and others as I intend to watch them all again. Hopefully you’ve spotted something here that you’re interested in watching this weekend; I highly recommend every one of these!